and then there were five.

this post is crazy overdue. 


I had a baby. a baby boy. nearly four weeks ago. and lemmetellyah. having three kids may be is the hardest transition of my life thus far. hence it taking me four weeks to find a spare moment to announce his arrival. we are taking it one day hour around here. 


lars reed stock barreled his way into the world at 6:30 am december 7th weighing in at 9lbs 9oz. it was a long afternoon, evening, night, early morning of laboring and with no aid of medical pain management, I felt all 9lbs 9oz of this boy. it was hard and frightening and what felt like to me, the valley of the shadow of death. 


but then. 


but then they put him on my chest. and I again felt that wave of overwhelming love. and the veil was thin. and my heart was as warm as his little angel soft body. and I had a son. a son! and oh, it felt like it was always meant to be. and he looked like his father. and it is heaven on earth, as literal as I can mean. 


he is well loved, and the brightest spot in all this adjustment. 




:: the name ::


lars is jeff's great great grandfather on his father's side. he was from denmark. 


reed is my maiden name, and this is me naming him after all my brothers, and my father. men I so love and admire. when I found out he was a boy, it hit home with me that my girls would have a brother. and having such wonderful brothers myself, I was just so excited for them. 


and stock, of course, as his last name. his father's name. a good name.